thx to all who hav given mi support wen
i needed it most..
whether a listenin ear or anythin.. i reali needed
them.. thx~

not feelin reali happi or sad now..
but i'm definitely expriencin wat is called
死心..
it's not a sad feelin.. it's more like a disappointment..

it can be such a strange thing wen a few weeks
ago i was hopin tat tis semester year to slow down
indefinitely, if not comin to a stop..

now..
i juz hope i can endure thru tis sem year..
light speed..

i reali muz admit.. i was naive..
til e veri last min..so much so tat i thought things
would be okay after tat talk..
instead, it opened new wounds tat i doubt would
ever heal within tis sem year..
i tink e wounds will heal onli after e inflictors hav
left..

hope i will be able to not wear my true emotions
proudly on my chest so as to not worry or affect
those who still care..
sry, but tat's as much as i can do.. e ball is not in
my hand now..


a new happiness is born.. though..
juz started my practical drivin lessons 2day..
e feelin wen i got to sit in e driver's seat, gettin
my half clutch rite, doin my turns, u-turns..
e feelin is simply wonderful.. superb..
tis is wat u get wen u put a drivin fanatic in e
driver's seat for e 1st time.. =)
tink i was borned a car fanatic.. passed on from
my father's genes..

oh.. n i 4got to mention i got to drive on e normal
street road at e end!!
though it's onli a straight road..
though i onli passed through 1 traffic light..
though i 'died engine' wen i stopped at e red light..
though i was overtaken by a lot of cars..
though i was scared n anxious..
i enjoyed myself..
i was truly happy..





for e 1st time in 2 weeks..



there's trainin tml..
not reali lookin forward to it..
trainin on sat too..
definitely not lookin forward to it too..
it's no longer a hobby..
more like work..
hope my burnin passion will let mi stay live
in such a horribly cold place..

e onli thing i'm lookin forward to is my 2nd
practical drivin lesson on sunday.. =)

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